Honesty

Thank you for showing so much love to little Blessing via my last post. She is such a special little girl and has no idea that people all over the world have heard her story and love her as well! I think about her everyday and hope she is loved and cuddled a lot at the orphanage, not sure how true that is though, but hopefully I will be able to go and visit her soon.

Everything on this trip seems to be moving very fast. Things with the Education Center are moving at rapid pace (update coming soon), the kids seem to be growing taller and more mature daily, new projects are forming, amazing ideas are being created and shared, and at the end of every day I feel accomplished and absolutely exhausted.

I’m trying to take each day as it comes. Every day is filled with new experiences, smells, food, smiles, struggles, and a whole lot of laughter. I wake up every day and am not quite sure what the day will bring, but know it will be an adventure. Some days I wake up and wonder how the heck my life took me to Ghana and placed it so deeply in my heart.

…but the future is constantly on my mind. I’m the type of person who wants everything planned out, and planned out right at this second. I am looking for so much clarity on this trip. I want to know if I’m supposed to finish college and how I will ever pay back the student loans. I want to know if I should start looking for a house in Ghana. I want to know if I should have taken Blessing home with me. I want to know if I should start my own non-profit here. I want to know if I should open a children’s home. I want to know if I should move here in June.

I also want to know if someone will enter my life to come along on this journey with me. No, I’m not talking about a husband (although I’ve gotten at least 10 marriage proposals in Ghana so far!), I’m talking more about a right-hand-person. Someone who shares the same ideas, passions, and heart as I do. Maybe its someone from the US, maybe its a young Ghanaian, maybe its some else. Someone who will run the children’s home or non profit or community group with me and be there every step of the way, because let me tell you, doing this all by myself is hard. Every day is not easy, and some days I want to spill my heart and frustrations on the closest person to me. But I know that I’m not alone, there are hundreds of people supporting me, cheering me on, listening, consoling, and loving me every step of the way. I just always wonder if I’m supposed to do this on my own, or with someone else.

There are so many questions that are unanswered in my head that I so desperately want answers to. I have to remind myself to not think so much about the future and to live in the moment. The future only comes one day at a time.