I’ve been living here in Ghana for almost two months now and I can’t believe just how quickly the time has gone. Every other time I’ve come to Ghana it’s been for a 3 month trip, and at the two month point I would be already dreading leaving, and trying to figure out any possible way to extend my trip. Every other trip I’ve been dragged, kicking and screaming (not literally), to the airport and handed my boarding pass for a flight back to the US.
But not this time. I arrived on a one-way ticket. No departure boarding pass in sight.
Most mornings I breathe a sign of relief knowing that I don’t have to count down the days I have remaining in the country. I don’t have to prepare my luggage, heart, and mind, to leave this place. I don’t have to figure out how to break the news to the kids I’m leaving, but that I’ll be back again in just a few months.
Because this isn’t just a trip to Ghana. This was an indefinite move. There are no countdowns, no days remaining, no see you in five months, no packing of bags, and no tear-filled goodbyes. I am here, and I am here indefinitely.
People have a lot of questions, concerns, and thoughts about my indefinite move and all that it entails. They ask what my 5 year plan is, what my 10 year plan is, when I’ll be moving back to the US, what projects I’ll be starting, and what exactly I’ll be doing here.
And right now I don’t know when I will be back to the US to visit. I don’t know how long I’ll be living in Ghana. I don’t know what projects and people will come into my life, for a short time, and forever. I don’t even know what today holds, and I have absolutely no idea what tomorrow will bring.
To many people, that seems scary. The complete unknown. Sometimes I do think that is scary and nerve wracking, but I am grounded once again knowing that I put my trust not in things of this Earth, but in a Heavenly Father. For He is the One who holds the universe, leads me, and guides my steps. What I see as the complete unknown of my future, He sees as the continuation of a journey diving deeper into Him.
Over the past two months He has shown me glimpses of my purpose here in Ghana, from the tiny moments to the life changing experiences. These moments inspire me, encourage me, enrage me, frustrate me, challenge me, stretch me, break me, and force me to fully rely on Him in every single moment of every single day. He is truly breaking my heart for what breaks His, as as weird as it sounds, I am thrilled that He is doing that, even though some nights end in a puddle of tears and sorrow. He is showing me where my niche is in caring for the least of these, and what that may look like for me here in Ghana. I know all these steps, these situations, these experiences, are leading up to something big. I’m not quite sure what that “big” is yet, but I have a few ideas that I’m keeping close between God and I.
I’m walking towards complete unknown. But I walk confidently in faith that my Father, the master Artist and Creator, is guiding my steps.
I never walk alone, for He is always with me.